今年8月31日是戴妃逝世20周年的纪念日。8月6日晚，英国电视四台（Channel 4）播出了一部不同以往的重磅纪录片——《戴安娜：自述》（Diana: In Her Own Words），引发全英轰动。
《卫报》在影评文中将该片称为“多年来最具争议的电视节目”（The most controversial TV programme for years）。
For many of her supporters, Diana: In Her Own Words is a thing they wish had not been on. The film includes videotapes recorded by the voice coach Peter Settelen in 1992 and 1993 during sessions to improve Diana’s public speaking, but in which she spoke frankly about private matters. They had been shown before in the US, but it was their first airing in the UK.
The recordings took place at Diana's home in Kensington Palace, and Channel 4 claim the footage is the only unmediated video the Princess ever recorded. While some of the footage has been used on TV in other countries, none of it has aired on British TV before.
"My parents, they never said they loved me."
"There was no, there was always a kiss there (pointing at her cheek)."
"There was no hugs or anything like that."
"I knew that something profound was coming my way and I was just treading water waiting for it."
"I didn’t know what it was, I didn’t know where it was, I didn’t know if it was coming next year or next month but I knew I was different from my friends in where I was going."
"I said you must be so lonely. I said it’s pathetic watching you walk up the aisle at St Paul’s with Lord Mountbatten’s coffin in front. I said, you know, ‘Ghastly, you need someone beside you’. Oh. Wrong word."
"Whereupon he leapt upon (me), he started kissing me and everything and I thought, ‘Ahh, you know, this is not what people do,’ and he was all over me for the rest of the evening, followed me around, everything. A puppy. And, yeah, I was flattered, but it was very puzzling."
"He wasn’t consistent with his courting abilities. He’d ring me up every day for a week and then he wouldn’t speak to me for three weeks, very odd."
"And I’d accepted that and I thought fine, he knows where I am if he wants me."
"And then the thrill when he used to ring up was so immense and intense, drive the other three girls in my flat crazy. But no, it was all, it was odd."
"I didn’t know whether to get out of the door first. I didn’t know if your handbag should be carried in your left hand, not your right hand. Everything was all over the place. I remember that evening so well. I was terrified. Nearly sick."
"Yeah, my family thought it was great, and so did my friends and so did Charles’s family."
"They liked me. They were very good to me when I was a guest. It means it changed when I was a daughter-in-law. Positions changed."
"It was as if everybody was monitoring every day for me. And I had to be aware that the whole country was holding its breath."
"I was brought up in the sense that you know, when you got engaged to someone, you loved them."
"The most extraordinary thing is we had this ghastly interview the day we announced our engagement and this ridiculous ITN man said, ‘Are you in love?’"
"I thought what a thick question so I said, ‘Yes, of course we are,’ in the sort of Sloane Ranger I was, and Charles turned round and said, ‘Whatever in love means’."
"That threw me completely. I thought what a strange question and answer. God. Absolutely traumatised me."
"No, I didn’t dare (ask him about it). Must have been, yeah (frightened). We met 13 times before we got married (laughs)."
"I remember saying to my husband, you know, ‘Why, why is this lady around?’ and he said, ‘Well I refuse to be the only Prince of Wales who never had a mistress.’"
"My father-in-law said to my husband, ‘Uh, if your marriage doesn’t work out you can always go back to her after five years’, which is exactly, I mean for real I know that it happened after five, I knew something was happening before that."
"Well, there was. There was. There was. But it was odd, very odd."
"But it was there then it fizzled out about seven years ago, six years ago, well seven, because Harry was eight."
"Instinct told me, it was just so odd. I don’t know there was no requirement for it from his case. Sort of once every three weeks and I kept thinking."
"And then I followed a pattern, he used to see his lady once every three weeks before we got married."
"And I’m sobbing and I said, ‘I’m coming to you. What do I do?’"
"And she said, ‘I don’t know what you should do, Charles is hopeless’. And that was it. That was help."
"So I didn’t go back to her again for help, because I don’t go back again if I don’t get it the first time."
"And so over the years, ‘Diana never talks. I never know what’s going on’."
"The public side was very different obviously from the private side. The public side, they wanted a fairy princess. Touch them and everything will turn into gold, and all their worries would be forgotten. Little did they realize that the individual was crucifying herself inside because she didn't think she was good enough."
"There’s just nobody to physically scream at. Or someone to put their arms around me — just listen when I cry."
"I can’t bear people saying it can’t be as bad as that, or we understand — nobody understands unless you’re the individual concerned."
"When it comes to a drama I can only sort myself, but I can’t get anybody else to sort me out."
"They all blamed the failure of the marriage on the bulimia."
"Said I was rejected, I didn’t think I was good enough for the family so I took it out on myself."
"I could’ve gone to alcohol. I could’ve been anorexic which should be even more obvious. I decided to do the more discreet thing which would not disgrace the royal family yet ultimately wasn’t discreet. But I chose to hurt myself instead of hurting all of you."
"The odd thing was when I was bulimic I wasn’t angry because the anger, I thought, was coming out that way."
戴安娜和保镖巴里· 曼纳基（Barry Mannakee），后者1987年死于车祸
"I’ll tell you one of the biggest crushes of my life, which I don’t find easy to discuss."
"When I was 24 or 25 I fell deeply in love with someone who worked in this
environment. And he was the greatest friend I ever had."
"I was always wandering around trying to see him. I just, you know, wore my heart on my sleeve and was only happy when he was around and the rest of it."
"Yeah, I supposed you could say I did, yes (see him as father figure). I’m sure I did. I was like a little girl in front of him the whole time."
"I mean I was quite happy to give all of this up. At the moment, at the time it was quite something to have all this, just to go off and live with him. Can you believe it? He kept saying he thought it was a good idea too."
"It got so difficult. People got so jealous and bitchy in this house and eventually he had to go. It was all found out and he was chucked out."
"Charles said to me, ‘He was killed in a motorbike accident’ and that was the biggest blow of my life I must say. It was a killer."
"I just sat there all day going through this huge high-profile visit to Cannes, just devastated."
"I think he was bumped off. But, there we are. We’ll never know."
"I used to have really disturbing dreams about him. And he was very unhappy wherever he’s gone to, and so I went and found out where he was buried and I went to put some flowers on his grave."
"And the day I did that (laid flowers) the day the dreams stopped. It’s strange, isn’t it? It’s like a sort of recognition."
"I should never have played with fire and I did. I got very burned."
"I know one day, if I play the game of life, I will be able to have those things which I've always pined for, and they'll be that much more special because I'll be that much more older, and be able to appreciate them that much more."
（stopping to look at a motorway pile-up to look at the gory details）
This is just another way of exploiting Diana. It’s not what Charles would want and it’s clearly not what the boys would want. It will be deeply hurtful to them.
The boys now must feel very exploited and very angry once again with the media and it reflects badly on all of us.
This unique portrait of Diana gives her a voice and places it front and centre at a time when the nation will be reflecting on her life and death.
拉夫•李（Ralph Lee），电视四台的首席创意副总监（Channel 4’s Deputy Chief Creative Officer）说：
NONE of us will forget the moment on Panorama when Diana said: “There were three of us in this marriage.”
It wasn’t that it was breaking news, Camilla was hardly a secret, but the fact she said it in public was hugely significant.
The decision to show the tapes has proved controversial but they are an important part of the historical record.
Bewitchingly, they reveal a thoughtful and often funny Princess finding her voice as the teller of her own story.